I don't know why but when my ds starts crying uncontrollably I get so frustrated so easily and begin to have thoughts that I want to leave him a dh behind. It makes me crazy bc I love them and I've always wanted to be a mommy but now idk what to do. My dh wouldn't understand! His mom walked out on him as a child so that makes me feel even worse. Dh gets to eat sleep shit and shower whenever he wants to and I don't. I'm a sahm which is a dream come true for me...so why does it feel like a nightmare?