My tattoo confession *UPDATE W/ PIC* UPDATE 2+Graphic Warning *UPDATE 4/9/13*
4/9/13 UPDATE: I know I am resurrecting an old thread but I thought this was funny and didn't want to create a new thread. My 6 year old accidently saw my tattoo. His exact words were "When did you get such a pretty sun?". He thinks it is a sun, lol.
So I am going for a tattoo tonight. I woke up today asking myself why the hell am I doing this. And then I figured out why I am having anxiety issues from it. This is my last PTSD hurdle basically. Yes I randomly have nightmares and body memories, but the main trigger spot is my one thigh. It always triggers me no matter what. No one has touched me there since my rape except for my wife and kids. So tonight I am getting a tattoo over that spot and that is why I am anxious. Someone else will get to touch it. I am afraid of being triggered. But I want to do this. It's weird.
Warning: Tattoo Pic coming...it is Graphic!!
For those asking what it is...It is what it would look like if you screwed a screw into your leg and then screwed it back out.
Update 2: And now I realize that I did this for some bad reasons too. I rushed it because I was manic. I didn't use the checks I have in place to prevent such a rash decision. I understand now why my wife was upset with it.