Tonight I told my two boys that if they didn't get their room clean than I wouldn't give them a second bath tonight (a bath to play instead of cleaning them). I went to the living room to clean up while they cleaned their bedroom. My oldest came running from the room and told me his brother wasn't cleaning because he says that what I said was don't clean and they can play in the tub. I went into the room to see him sitting on floor. I am so stupid. I keep forgetting. I sat down with him and signed to him what I wanted him to do. He stood up and helped his brother clean. Everyone keeps telling me how he is fine. I know he can hear and read lips, but people want me to forget that his brain can't. I know he turns now when I talk. I know our excersises are working but they aren't enough for the subtle ways of English American speech. I know that my friends who know who I am will think me nuts, but I am sick of pretending that he understands me just verbally. Without social cues and lip reading I know he can sometimes understand sound but no one can tell me that he understands me or anyone all of the time. He did exactly what I asked after I used the sign language everyone tells me he doesn't need. I am so stupid and pissed off at myself.