Am I a bad mom/person? My Daughter loves her SM and it tears me up
OK I am a single mom and my 3 yr old (4 in April) daughter's dad isn't a horrific father but he only lands somewhere between terrible and extremely lazy. I work three jobs to support her and spend every free second I have playing with her or doing something constructive like helping her with homework or cooking dinner with her. We have a wonderful relationship, I know I am very blessed. When her dad picks her up she runs into his arms, then hops in his fiance's arms just as happy to see her. I know it is terrible of me but I hate this so much. They do nothing for her but feed her junk food and sit her in front of the tv. I know it would be ten times worse to see agony in her eyes when she headed his direction and I do not want that and I am happy she likes his new girl and she treats my daughter pretty decently. But I still can't shake the stomach ache and bad feelings when I see her run off to be part of another family. Has anyone else ever felt like this? Did you feel guilty about it? Please tell me your story and why or why not. I need to stop feeling this way. It is terrible :( and please don't bash me, I need advice not meanness.
Thanks to everyone who is being kind. I already stated I am happy that she likes her and she treats my daughter decent. I show no negative emotion (about her father or step mom) around my daughter. I encourage her to see them. We even make them crafts birthday/chirstmas/mothersday/valentines day cards. I am not sure how I can encourage it any more lol. It just hurts on a mommy level seeing her from my living room window b.c. I really really do try so hard to be the best mommy I can be. So to watch some one so lazy get all the same love kinda sucks. I know she is only 3 and I would never change her preception of him, that will happen all on his own time. Remember I said I feel Guilty for feeling the way I do.