I am 26. I weigh 240lbs and am 5'5. I HATE my body. I'm not going to give excuses, I've done so much damage to my body. I drink ten-twelve sodas a day, eat crap all the time.
I'm tired all the time. I'm also depressed. My kids are both school aged now, and I thought I would have lost weight by now. Nope. I'm even to embarrassed to let my kid go to a birthday party.
Here's what I ate/drank today:
6 mountain dews
7 Dr Peppers
Breakfast: Healthy Choice saulisbury steak meal (sad, right?)
Snack:Chocolate cake and milk
Lunch:Healthy choice fish with green beans, and two hot pockets
Snack:a brand new bag of Ridges. I finished the whole bag in 25 mins
Dinner:Hot pocket and mac and cheese
Now, I do not feed my kids this shit. My oldest eats fruits, veggies, and fish. Thats about it. My youngest has CP, and has tube feedings.
I really need help. I am not wiliing to go to the doctor. I do believe I have diabeties, and I KNOW I need to do something. I won't be alive much longer if I continue down this path. PLEASE help me. TELL me what to do, how you have done it.
Please don't bash me. I feel like shit already.
It turns out, I am covered by my DH medical. (Yes, I am blonde...) So, I have a doctor's appt. tommor. Super scared.
I turned to a long time friend, and she will be helping me. Her husband is a trainer, and he said he wants to help out. While she was watching my son, we threw 90% of what I had away, and he even offered to do some shopping for me.We made a grocery list together, and he helped me figure out some meals/snacks for this week. He also told me I am just eating to pass the time, which is very true. He suggested chewing gum when I get that way.
I figure I need to exercise about an hour a day, hopefully more.
So far today, I have eaten:
1 cup of coconut milk (it's revolting, but I will stick with it!)
4 pieces of sugar free extra gum
and TWO Ozarka 16.9 oz bottle waters
small spinach salad with tomatoes, olives and 5 sprays of ranch dressing
I think I'm doing WONDERFUL! I have also walked around the fence in my backyard 15 times today.
I wanted to thank all of you who had ideas. I haven't read them all yet, but I will get there.
And to you guys who said I don't need a diet, I need a life change. Your right.And it took me posting on here to figure it out myself. I also have a meeting with a therapist set up for next Monday.
Even though my DH is away at work, he says he's proud of me for doing something about it, and that he had his blinders on when it came to me. He said he still saw the 120 lb girl he married. YEAH RIGHT!
I think 140 would be a good weight for me. :)