*ETA : Edited to Add .....................I am an Alcoholic and a Drug addict............. ask me anything .
I didn't have a great childhood. My parents are alcoholics. I met my first husband when I was a teenager . We got married when I was 18. Our son was born when I was 19 . We ended up divorced before I was 21 .
I finally realised I was an alcoholic when I was 25/26 .
I had been clean and sober for 3 years when I started talking to my , now, DH . We met in * The Rooms *
DH was a cocaine/crack addict. Yes he has had his breakdowns after we met. I have supported him. He has been clean for 4 yrs now.
I started drinking and taking pain pills 2 years ago because of a chronic pain problem . ( major back problems and recenly diagnosed with MS )
I hate being an alcoholic !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is a horrible thing. I am not the type of alcoholic that gets the bad shakes from not drinking. But I do drink every day. Every day I start drinking around 5pm. I don't just drink 2 drinks. I drink until I am drunk.
I will never be able to simply have 2 drinks with friends. If I'm out with friends ,I may only have those 2 drinks, when with them. When I leave them I will get more to drink.
I can't drink without getting drunk .
It isn't something I am proud of. My Children do not see me drunk.
I am here , putting this all out there, because I want to stop !
My first step ( yet again ) is to put it out there , that I am an alcoholic.
The more honest and brutal your responses and questions are. The more I feel the need to be honest to answer. . Some of you may think it's an easy thing to kick. Let me tell you....
The Brutally Honest questions are not easy to answer......... but just the thing I need to help in my recovery. The more honestly I answer these question. The more it hits me to do the right thing