Okay, so you know how sometimes you think about something that upset you from a while ago and then you get all mad and hurt again? Well that just happened, and yeah there's going to be that one person that is going to tell me to get over it but I need to vent and let it out because I didn't when it happened.
A couple weeks ago I got a text from my dad asking if I was pregnant again. Um, no? I asked why he would even think that and he said that since I haven't came around in a while (since Xmas) that it must be because I'm pregnant and showing. Hold the hell up. He knows I'm in school full time, he knows I have two jobs so that I can make ends meet and pay my bills, he knows I'm a single mom. School, work, and a 4 year old---those are all time consuming things. Monday-Friday I'm either at school or at job #1, Saturday and Sunday I'm at job #2 for 12 hours each day. Any extra time I do have is spent with my child or studying. I work my ass off to make sure I make good grades and the money I need. I've been on the Dean's List every semester since I started college. But no, of course he wouldn't think of those as possible reasons for why I haven't had a chance to come over. OF COURSE it's because I'm knocked up again. What else could he expect from his daughter that got pregnant at 17, right.
Ugh, okay. Vent over. I don't know why this has gotten me so hurt and upset but it has. I just feel like obviously he has no faith in me. I try so hard in everything I do, and yeah some of it might be to please/prove to him. When he asked I just said that school, work, and my son has been keeping me busy, he doesn't know how hurt he made me.