Before this time, I have always been undecided on how I feel about abortion because I think moms should have choices, but babies should too. I was adopted and glad my bio mom chose NOT to have one. But at the same time, I understood moms deserve the choice. So I was on the fence.
Before anyone bashes me by saying "you should have used protection blah blah!" I DID. I had an IUD. It slipped. We used condoms some as well. My ds is only 8 months old and my DD is 2 1/2. And I'm almost on pa as it is trying to afford just us. Also, my so has a 3 yr old daughter by someone else and he pays cs. Another baby is not an option.
I feel really guilty but I know I can't have another baby right now, if ever again.
I just moved in with my parents because I'm trying to finish school. I really am in no position for another baby. So and I don't live together. We are waiting until we can buy a house together/get engaged and all that.
I can't tell anyone. Everyone in my family is super religious and against Abortions. They would never forgive me or let it go...
I have no one to talk to about it. So doesn't understand the depth of the situation to me. He doesn't know why it's such a big deal.
I'm afraid of the guilt that will come along.... I have really high bp and my last 2 pregnancies were high risk on bed rest. I couldn't work/ clean anything. If I chose to go through with the pregnancy to put the baby up for adoption, i wouldn't be able to support the two that I have now for almost a year. My parents are older an can't take care of baby/toddler. Or afford us all.. And I'd have to quit school.
Anyone with advice please let me know. I could use some encouraging words or some wisdom from other moms who have been through this or seen a situation like mine.