I know this marriage is toxic. I know it's not good for the kids to hear us fight
I know I should not have treated V like shit.
I know he is an asshole but I am no ray of sunshine. And now I'm being a total cunt to my mom....
What the fuck is wrong with me?!
I'm an emotional disaster but at the same time.... I feel NOTHING.... Ever! I'm never truly angry when I'm fighting with him. I'm never really sad. I'm never happy I'm never upset I'm never anything....
I'm a fucked up robot.... Just going through the motions and never really being here... :(
This is just a vent. Not really looking for replies or praise or anything