I was anorexic in high school and used to be so thin.
I met DH and he helped me cope with my emotions and attain a normal weight.
Then I had two babies and have ballooned up 80 pounds.
I have PCOS, I feel so fat and disgusting and as a result of growing apart from DH I have become an emotional binge eater instead of starving myself. I worked so so so so so hard the last 6 months and have lost 30 lbs but now I'm fucking stuck. It doesn't matter what I eat or how much I work out, I can't get below 200 pounds.
I am also nursing my second child so I don't want to completely restrict my calories and risk my milk supply.
But I ate way too much for dinner tonight as fucking usual. And I felt so fucking disgusting until I excused myself to the bathroom and stuck my fingers down my throat. It made me feel fantastic to throw up all that food. I feel light and happy.
I know it isn't a good path to go down, but I'm already thinking of what else I can eat and just throw it right back up... win-win.