I LET my man beat me and belittle me.... but I am in control..ask me anything
I do not exist except for what he makes me. I do not make my own decisions. I used to be a vegitarian but now I eat steak, it is my favorite meal because he says so. I can not buy things at the store without his permission.
Only he knows what is right to buy for his family, including me because I can't make decisions on my own. I get things thrown at me when I disobey. But its okay because I made a mistake, I deserve to be punished. I do not masterbate because it is disgusting. Only he can masterbate because for men it is natural. Also, it is only natural to have sex missionary. If I suggest otherwise I am a disgusting whore. But I shouldn't have asked. I should have known better.
I have to clean up the mess from the cup he threw at my head that broke and coffee got all over the couch and wall, I didn't wash my cup by the time he came home. Doesnt' matter that I was still drinking it, I should have been sitting on the couch hands folded, with food on the table waiting for him, any sign of ME should be gone from his sight so I deserved his punishment.
He punishes me in public, asking others to join in in my humiliation because I am too stupid to be in public with people. I should have known not to be stupid.
This is what I went through in a domestic VIOLENCE relationship. I finally got out and I am so happy for it. I stayed because I felt so little and insignificant that I thought I could never live without his guidance. But I am SOOOO much better for leaving. I LOVE my life now. I make my OWN choices which, omg you don't know how big of a deal that is until you went without it for so many years.
I just don't understand how someone could intentionally put themself in this situation and talk about it like it is a GOOD thing.
(my title was attention grabbing, that is all)