I have to vent and get this off my chest. My husband is being a complete monster to me.
I tell him his words don't hurt me and I'm smart enough and confident enough to not let them hurt me. But they do. As I say that I wish I could let the tears run down my face but I stay strong.
I have the best days. They're peaceful and happy and full with my 18 mo old son and I'm now pregnant with our 2nd.
I'm 6 months along and I know obviously I've gotten bigger but my husband keeps finding ways to call me fat. Like fatso or fatass and ugly.
He feels awful about himself because of his own struggles with his weight and he is having a hard time in his work and with keeping up with making money. So it seems he's taking all his anger and frustration out on me.
Sometimes it's in front of our son but most of the time it is when he doesn't hear or know. I tell my husband to not treat me bad in front of him because it will upset him, hurt him, is bad for him psychologically etc. so he does it most after he's asleep or when he's playing not next to where I am.
It mostly in bed when he lets it all out and is really horrible. I can't even say anything back to him. And I have no where to go. We have no other bed in our house. I just want to lay in bed and sleep because I'm exhausted but I have to hear him go on and on until he falls asleep.
That's all. I just try to not let it effect me. But it's hard to always just brush it off as if it didnt Happen.
I am dreading it being the weekend. He will do this to me anytime he can.
It's a dirty secret I keep and everyone in our life thinks my husband is handsome, charming even and they think he's such a great guy.
Thing is. As sooon as He comes home or after everyone leaves our house, he treats me so awful. I wish everyone irl knew.
At the same time when I complain about this, I'm very happy in other ways. How he takes care of us as a family so I can be a SAHM, he is actually a really great father to our son and our son adores him.
Just have to get it off my chest