I would have changed quite a few things.
I would have never started talking to my mother again. Because now, after 10 years of trying to forgive her, I just can't. And I don't know how to tell her that the abuse I emotional and mental abuse I suffered from her still, to this day, fucks with me every day. No matter what I do, I NEVER feel good enough. or pretty enough. or worth anything. and its her fault. She never once said something nice to me. SHe never once advocated for me, or protected me from the other people who just tore me down inside. I wish I never started talking to her again
I would have never joined that Army. I would have stayed home with my son, gone to college when I should have and rented an apartment with my best friend. Then I could have never had to deal with my father again. Because he insists that I raise my family with his views. Except that his oldest daughter doesn't talk to him, his next daughter (me) was on drugs at 13 and pregnant at 14, and his only son is actually certifiable. I guess thats two in one
Since I did go in the army, I wish I would have taken it more seriously. THat shit was a joke. No 17 year old should ever be allowed in the military.... unless they are undeniably mature for their age.
I wish I wouldn't have gotten married 3 weeks after I turned 18. I love my husband, but I wonder what freedom would be like.
I wish I would have waited longer to have children. I love them all to bits, but it would have been SO MUCH EASIER to do this once I was already established.
Feel free to add your own....
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders.