you dont have to read f you dont want. Mostly im just organizing thoughts, but feedback is obviously welcomed or I wouldn't be posting here. I wont respond to negative Nacies. I've got enough assholes in my life.
When Dh first got home from afghanistan in 2009, he was arrested for assaulting me. I went to his unit to request help. they told me that if I continued this prosecution that they would take his money then kick him out and "my children wouldn't have money to eat" so i got scared and lied over and over to get him out of trouble. abuse contued to occur throughout our marriage for years. I was always too afraid to get help because when it was happening he would start telling me how he was oging to lie to the cops so that I went to jail.
In 2011 I was arrested for felony 2nd degree assault with a weapon against him. He beat my ass that night with our son next to me in the bed. then unplugged the house phone and took the cell so I couldn't call for help. I so did what I did. I deserved my consequence. I've done it diligently.
Throughout the time I was going through my stuff, he continued to abuse me in different ways and it was always "call the cops. youll go to jail, look at your charges" so I was too afraid to call. Even when he broke a window over my head. He followed me around the house, trapped me in rooms. refuseed to let me sleep. ect.
easter morning he kicked my dads ass because my dad asked us to not to sleep in. choked him out, twice. THEN tried to pull the same manipulative shit to make it out to be my dad's fault. the cops didn't buy it this time. hes in jail right now.
i called the prosecuter today and I explained to them EVERYTHING. how afraid I've been to reach out for help. How often this stuff happens. ALL of the details of the night I got arrested. EVERYTHING. and I told them to get him help.
So i dont know whats going to happen.
Im so confused. He isn't abusive but very rarely. however, when he is it BAD. i feel a loyalty to him, but I am PISSED at him. this boy is over a foot taller than my dad and I and uses his sheer size to his advatage. he is manipulative as all fuck. actually had me believing that it was ALWAYS my fautl.
i dont know wtf.