I am scared, nervous, and hopr I am all wrong about this.....UPDATE UPDATE CORRECTIONS AS WELL
Backstory A while back I made a post saying "I think my Dh is having a emotional affair ( Text and talking to other woman. Meeting up, seeing them naked, or what they would do together etc.) and back up to his old habits that I caught him doing before.
Forward: well It only be a month since I found text messages in his phone and conforted him. About two weeks after thats incident he was starting to acting odd again. So I track his number (Metro has a dial app) and could see who he was calling and when. The times were always when I am church or his working when these call were made to center numbers. I know for sure one of the numbers is a female coworker.(She cant even look at me and is all nervous like when Seeing me in the store. THis happen last night as well.)
Well this morning I was looking online and found a site that let me see everything, phone calls, address book and text messages words for words as that are sent and receiving. So when he goes to work if he text someone I will know and can see what is being said.
If it turns out to be his old shit again. I Leaving Dh once I got the money as well as a place to go. Before anyone said Try to work it out or go to counseling. It won't help. We try everything and it always his sorry it will NEVER happen again.
FYI it's been six years and two kids later that I've been dealing with this and doing everything to change it. I want our marriage to work out but it just doesn't seem like that a option anymore. I allowed him to gain my trust back over and over again. I will start to trust again Dh breaks my heart all over again. I just don't think I can handle this abuse it anymore. At this point I rather have physical abuse then all this emotional and mental abuse. That's a different story.
sorry for errors.
Let me and I will correct them.
UPDATE:Sorry it took so long to get back on. Pretty much he doing Dh is back to his old ways. There were messages he sent To ( we call her E) but she never responded back to him at all. So I thought okay it just me being paranoid. Nope he keeping get on his something ( I wasn't allowed to see Dh would exit real quick if I came near him) while we were watching tv on his phone and it was driving me crazy. We end up getting in a little fight afterwards he started kiss my butt soon.
Something wasn't sitting well with me so since I am the who get up with the baby during the night. Once I got her back to sleep I looked at his phonee ( Yes I know but I don't want hear how wrong it is blah blah ) there was a app. It kinda like facebook but on the phone. Well anyways he had sent tons of messages to different girls saying things like
Ex: "Your so dam hot, you want watch a movie with me (PoRn), and the one that made me mad was "Your kids are cute; I also have to little girls".
Even through none of the girls responed it the fact of how he was talking to them and his in a relateship no less. I just don't know what to think.
Also I could sleep by him no more afterwards so I moved to the couch. During the time I was asleep and writing this now Dh went on his phone and delete everything again. I am over this shit