Most people think that an abortion will just make the "problem" go away. In my case, that is far from true.
I often wonder what could have been. I constantly think of what I could have done differently if I could just go back in time.
I would have told the would have been father and his parents, "I'm pregnant. You can either help me raise this child, or not. That's up to you, but I'm keeping this baby. I can do this with or without you."
I would have told my mother that an abortion is out of the question. I would have told to her stop trying to convince me that it's the right thing to do. I would have done my research and realized that my baby was not a "cluster of cells" but in fact a living being growing inside of me.
I would have taken my dad up on his offer to move back in with him and raise the baby, He was the only one who actually wanted me to keep my baby, I would have listened to him instead of fought him.
I would have gone to the doctors. I would have gone to a high risk center and made sure that we did everything in our power to see that this baby was born healthy.
I would have enrolled in an accelerated high school since I only had a few credits left. I would have done whatever it took to graduate early before the baby was born.
I wouldn't have killed my baby. I would have followed my intuition and not let others pressure me into getting rid of my "problem". I should have. I should have stood up for that life and distanced myself from all of them.
But it's too late. I'll never be able to forgive myself. I just wish I hadn't have been so stupid.
I guess what I'm hoping to get out of this post is that maybe someone has been put into the same situation that I was in years ago can read this and maybe have a positive impact for them. I'm not trying to persuade anyone's decision or change anyone's mind if they are considering it, but I'm asking that if you think abortion is for you that you need to do your research and seriously evaluate if this is the choice for you. It's not something to be done impulsively. Each option has it's own pros and cons.