But now as I've gotten older I'm so incredibly, insanely, stupidly paranoid about saying racist things.
I think racism is focused on way too much, but I also agree that it should be addressed. Ugh. It's confusing and frustrating.
We went to dinner tonight with my male friend and his (black) African girlfriend.
I was talking about this really tough job I had and I said, "I was basically a slave."
Well, she's black and African and I was slightly drunk so I had this miniature panic moment.
It wouldn't have even crossed my freaking mind to think twice about the word "slave" 10 years ago!
I'm embarrassed that I'm embarrassed about it, kwim?
I started fumbling and stuttering and I felt my face get hot and I couldn't remember what I was talking about. What an IDIOT.
My friend looked embarrassed and looked over at his gf who just kept staring at me. My dh was apparently oblivious...
I finally just ended my story and thankfully my dh changed the subject.
I'm back home now and so humiliated...