Long story short. I've been with SO for almost 12 years now, we have two beautuful little girls together. I wouldn't change that at all. We have been fighting a lot lately. We used to be very close and I could talk to him about anything but I don't feel that way anymore. At times he makes me feel like I don't deserve time to just relax or have me time. Right now I am a SAHM and I go to school fulltime. I am with the girls 24/7. He works during the day and comes home.
My other problem is that over the past 12 years he has changed. I know I have changed too but not like he has. I seem to find myself regretting a lot of decisions I have made and resenting him in ways for oppertunities I have missed out on. He isn't very social anymore but always talks about it being nice if we had friends to go and do things with. I've made a friend and she invited us to a cookout this weekend. I knew it was a long shot but when I asked him if he wanted to go he said "Um yeah I don't think so." Then says I can still go.
I also have been having dreams about an one certain ex. It's always him. Never anyone else. I just don't know how I really feel about anything anymore.