cant sleep! just keep hearing what bs my mom was telling me over and over again
ok let me start out with the fact that both my parents are hardcore alcoholics.
my dad is an undiagnosed bipolar/schiso(sp?) mixxed with an 18 pack of beer every day
and my mom has her anxiety attacks mixxed with her daily half a big bottle of vodka
so i visited my parents on the weekend and usually my parents dont really talk to me just a hi, how are you small talk. well my mom pulls me into the bathroom and starts telling me how she wanted to leave my dad for so long but the reason she didnt is because blah blah blah and that she feels like she owes him for all hes done for her. i just kept my mouth shut and agreed with her and couldnt wait till the conversation was over so i could leave. what was she talking about? it made no sense he beat her broke her nose, ribs and arm. what does she owe him he was always getting fired and just two years ago up and quits his job with no replacement job so he used up all his 401k and she says how can i leave him, he would have nothing.
then she says that he was a good father i just kept my mouth shut. how in the fuck was he a good father? he hit me kicked me while wearing steel toed boots and never had a loving moment. she says he co-signed me my car. so does that mean i owe him? i paid the car off and he still acts like i owe him.
neither of them were good [parents no matter how hard they try to convince themselves or me. what kind of parent spends more money on booze and cig? than on grocerys?
sorry this is long but i just realized my mom is a complete nut job and i guess i never saw it before. the words that came out of her mouth was like she was trying to convince herself not me.