i never get Saturdays off. today I did. and I wish I just fucking worked instead. my house is so tense today. my mom and brother have to stay with df and I for a few days. I thought as long as it wasn't long term it would be ok. df could survive a few days. instead it has been 24 hours and i'm getting full blown asshole thrown at me. I haven't done anything wrong. all I do is go to work and come home. all I wanted was a good day off to have some family time. some time with my kids who I barely get to see. that's ruined. because of the tenseness I took them to their grandmas house. I never get to see my family. we see dfs family daily. I have seen my older brother ONCE in the past year. its not easy for me. I really rather my mom and brother not see df being mean to me, but I guess that expectation is gone now. the rest of my day off is going to be sent with df being mean to me and everything being tense, and I gotta work at 6 am tomorrow. I cant do anything right. can never have a great day off. cant ever see my damn kids. and nobody cares. I wanna run away right now. grab my kids and take off. but I cant. of course. I never get anything I want. my life is spent being miserable and tired. I cant even leave the house by myself today.