How did I get into this situation? But I don't want to leave it. I feel guilty and dirty but at the same time I look Foreward to our next hook Up. He just confuses me he will hold my hand almost have me a shirt of his to wear home and he even called me baby once lol my heart jumped and my mind fell into a trance. I try to hide how I feel well he knows I like him and I'm atrracted to him and want more than hook ups. But he has no idea how I feel truly he has no idea how bitter sweet his kisses are how my day is 100% better when he smiles. So I obviously am not telling anyone in person that I'm hooking up with him and defiantly not that I'm falling for him. I just want him happy and this seems to put a smile on his face. I just needed to get this off my chest I never hooked up like this and it hurts but thrills me at the same time.