You get a fucked up boy and a fucked up girl. They make a baby. Girl does drugs, attempts sucide, drinks and does everything you possible can during pregnancy to make a child turn out fucked up.
The boy bails the moment the test comes back positive.
But does the girl decide to abort? Nope
She has the kid and fucks him up more during his first year of life.... Then she bails and leaves the kid with family.
So whose stuck taking care of this uncontrollable child? This screaming fit pitching human who has so many problems that the doctors don't even know where to begin?
And I know. It's not his fault.
I know he didn't ask to be this way.
But I did either! I didn't make him this way. His sorry excuse for a mother did.
But of course she's not the one running around taking him to therapy several times a week. Shes not the one that has to clean up the mess when he climbs his freaking dresser and takes all the pictures of the damn wall and breaks them. Not only did he break them he stabbed my other child with the glass pieces.
Oh and let's not forget my other children. Ya know the ones I planned for. The children I loved and cared for from day 1. My wonderful normal kids. They didn't ask for this. They don't deserve this. I spend most of my day dealing with someone else's child that its hard for them to get the attention they deserve.
And when BM thinks it is convient she wants to whisk "her son" away to the zoo. All if a sudden hes her son? She can't bother to maybe take him to a therapy session or call ever, but at least she wants to spend time with him, right?
This is all mostly just a vent.
And I also wanted to give kudos to moms with special needs children. I just don't know how you do it. I haven't been at it that long and I feel like I'm about to have a mental break down.
Ya know someone asked me today if I hoped his bm would get him back some day and without giving it a second thought I said yes. I feel guilty for feeling this way. But if I could find a way an make his bm grow up. Make her stop using drugs. I would and I would give her back "her son" in a heartbeat.
Because I never asked for this.