Fast forward. I tried moving on with my life but I couldn't. Ended a great, long term relationship because my heart was still with that guy- even tho he either treated my like shit or ignored us completely.
We've been talking on the phone and email for the last year. A very few visits, sexual tensions were high, etc. entire time, he was telling me he wants to be back with me, etc.
I was falling for it but I didn't want to be in Relationship until he moves back home and his actions prove he's worth my time.... But honestly, again, he's got my heart.
Then I was talking with his other kids grandma, and apparently he's been talking the same way with her daughter... The mother of his other child (the child he stuck around for!) He's been sending her letters and she's been sending him some too... All through a third party because she's in a relationship with another guy: they just had a baby late last year.
So yea. I've been played... But I can't get him out of my heart, out of my head. If he gets back with her, he'll get bad- she's still on heroin, she'll have him start up again. He always told me about how she'd emotionally abuse him: making fun of his teeth, calling him worthless, etc... And she'd use their kid against him (do this for me or I'll take the baby and you'll never see her again type thing)
How do I get over him? I need to... And time isn't helping. The first 6 years, he was completely absent from my life and I was still damn near stuck on him. Now that we're talking again, just as friends... Him eventually being in our sons life... It won't be as easy to get rid of him again... Not just that but I have his other kid half the time now- the kid who has a relationship with him... I can't keep him out of her life when she misses him so much.