I came out at 13 to my cousin (who is more like my sister) and a few of my closest friends. From as far back as I can remember I always assumed I was lesbian, even though I didn't even know what a lesbian was at age 4 or 5. My first kiss and my fist relationship were both with girls. It was what was most natural for me and still is! My curiosity got the best of me and I started dating guys during my late teens. I then dated women off and on as well as men. I don't regret my experiments with male relationships because I ended up becoming a Mother and I wouldn't change that for the world. As I've gotten older, I have come to realize that I am not attracted to men at all. I am in a long term relationship with a man who is a fantastic Father and treats me very well but the guilt of yearning to be in a serious relationship with a woman has been wearing on me. I'm not talking, bring another woman into my bedroom. Nothing was worse than a female only wanting to date me to spice up her sex life with her husband. That's not my intention.
I used to identify as bisexual but I know in my heart that I am gay. I am a lesbian. I've not made my feeling a secret from my significant other. He has known about my sexuality since day one. I feel like I'm having to come out all over again. I don't want to break his heart.