I think about all the things I want out of life and I realize that I really haven't accomplished any of my goals. When I scroll through Facebook I see a lot of people from school have such great lives. They have or are currently working for things that I want as well. Then I notice that those same people are the ones posting their love for god. In the past I have tried to be a Christian. It just doesn't feel right to me. I can't help but to question if god really exist. I wish I could believe. I wish I could have something to hold onto and to turn to during tough times. My lack of faith has also left me feeling that ill never live the life I want. I'm missing that strength and motivation. I'm just so frustrated with the way my life is becoming. I need a change and not sure how to make it happen. I almost feel upset with myself for not allowing me to just believe in something more than the eye can see.