I had a one night stand . It was 6 weeks after I was raped. I went out dancing and went home with a guy I had met one time before. I never even knew his last name. It was liberating for me, I refused to let that rape define my sex life, or ruin sex for me.
I am not healed fully yet though, I have flashbacks all the time.
I hit myself.
I am not a good mother.
I lose my cool way too bad. I shout, yell, curse, slam things .
I'm such a terrible example for him.