I put my youngest daughter up for adoption because I wanted a boy
I put my youngest daughter up for adoption because I wanted a boy. I have 5 older daughters and we were trying so hard for a boy. My sister had been trying for a baby for years and the situation just worked out for everyone. At that time in my life I was so devestated about not having a boy. I think it would be hard for many people to understand. I felt like a failure, i felt that my DH was disappointed in me, I felt that god hated me. I am pregnant again and this time boy or girl I am letting my sister adopt him or her.
ETA: just to clarify I was in a severe depression when this happened. I was not mentally stable. I do not feel this way now and half regret the adoption because I was so stupid but at the same time do not because of how happy her family is now. It is hard to explain.
ETA2: This pregnancy was planned with the intentions of my sister adopting the baby.
ETA3: I am going to explain more of the situation because it wasn't clear. When I got pregnant with my daughter all we were trying for was another baby. I had always hoped for a boy but we were not just trying for a boy. Everything was going great and we were happy until tragedy struck. My mother and grandmother died within a month of eachother. I was broken and for some reason I felt that having a boy would make everything better (clearly not rational thinking) when she wasn't a boy I just couldn't handle it. Adoption was the best thing. Even though my reason was horrible and disgusting adoption was better because I was not mentally able to have a baby at that point. This was 5 years ago. I do not feel this way now. All that matters is a healthy child.
ETA4: Yes I KNOW that sperm determines the sex....