I fucked up and had a lapse of judgment. My insurance ran out and so I went off of birth control. I didn't think it would be a huge deal because I had not had sex for almost a year. My DDs are 2 years old. My ex and I broke up when they were about a year. Well me and him were hanging out after taking the girls to the circus. We had a few to many glasses of wine and the next thing I know I am waking up next to him. I assumed we used a condom so I didn't think anything of it. The next we we talked about it and he told me we didnt use a condom it was too late to take plan b at that time.
I took a test after I missed my period and yup I am pregnant. I can not have another baby right now. I have a lot on my plate.I work 2 jobs and take online classes on top of having my twins. I have no health insurance. The girls are on their dads health insurance so they are covered but me and this pregnancy are not. Things are hard enough the way they are. If i am pregnant and can not work I will probably lose my girls. They do not have paid maternity leave at either of my jobs. I am not on PA and do not want to go on PA. I don't know if I will ever be able to get off it again if I start. I don't want to be a "lifer" but I feel that having it much easier would mean I would not want to get off of it
I just can't believe one stupid night can mess up a life so much. This is my confession.I am not looking to change my mind just needed to vent.