I have had anxiety ever since my DD was born. I haven't seen a therapist or anything, but in the process of finding one to go see and talk to before I would go down the SSI/Disability route.
Ok. When I went in to have my daughter, after 15 hours of labor, I had to have an emergency c-section. When the dr was cutting me, I could feel it and passed out from the pain. They have me other medicine that kept me in a knocked out state but apparently I was talking. When they went to show me my daughter when they took her out, I was unable to see. I never got the immediate bonding time. After she was born, I couldn't see for 3 hours. I couldn't hold her or anything for those first hours of her life. I started having anxiety attacks about 3 times a day. Got prescribed 1mg Ativan, 20mg Paxil, and 20mg Hydroxyzine Pam every 6 hours. My anxiety kept increasing. Dr upped my dose of Paxil to 20mg twice a day. Anxiety kept increasing to about 5-20minute attacks per day. Decided to go to a different dr. He put me on same meds except Ativan twice a day. 4 months later and I'm up to Ativan 3 times per day. I have about 10 sever anxiety attacks per day. They happen randomly and are severe. I think I'm dying every time. I hate going to the dr, or taking my DD to the dr. I get panicky and have to take an Ativan before I leave the house, and again at the drs office. I hate leaving my home. When I have to leave, I have to take an Ativan 15 minutes before I am leaving just to make it out of the house. I can't stand being around people anymore. Any place with more than 5 people, and I have an anxiety attack and need to leave. Im fortunate enough to have my mother do all my grocery shopping for me so I don't have to go to the store.
So I'm just curious, I have 2 years of this anxiety documented and how it's gotten more severe.
Are there any moms who get this for anxiety? What would my next steps be? I want to work, but I can't handle the people. If I could find a job that was just me I'd be fine. What did you do to start the SSI process? How long did it take to get approved? Is 2 years enough? Do I have to see a therapist or is the increasing anxiety enough? (I ask this because I have the debilitating attacks just leaving my house. Drs make it so much worse)