I'm at home while ds(1yr) if asleep.. I feel so helpless. I want to be there for both of them..
I was able to have someone watch ds so I could get to the hospital. MIL was crying and hugging me.. She had her head buried in my chest crying and squeezing my hand.. It was so sad. I've give through depression and therapy so she was happy that someone was there to understand her. When she would cry and hug me I would look across the room and dh would be teary eyed.. It was heart breaking.. Dh said she would randomly start crying and screaming that she wanted to die. She didn't call us cuz she has called her xmil in hopes she'd understand. Well her xmil told her not to burden us with her suicidal thoughts, that dh would probably disown her for hurting herself... Dh told his mom that she's crazy, that'll he will always be there and that his grandma is older and grew up believing you deserved to be disowned for negative thoughts like that. the hospital called some people who are suppose to come and evaluate her but the blood work showed her alcohol level was too high. We also found out that since monday, every time she'd have an anxiety attack she'd take an ativan but we think she wouldn't wait til it was time for the next dose and took a.couple too many. When she realized she was going to have to stay and we would have to go home she cried... begging for us to take her home :( I said bye and hugged her tight.. I left the room so dh could say bye alone.. I could hear her crying.. Took her about 15 mins to be able to let dh go.. We can't visit her till after she's evaluated (they said her blood alcohol levels won't be low enough till 1pm). Afterward we find out if she's okay to go home or if they want her going to a behavioral hospital. She told us about 20 times to make sure we call her work, she'd scared to get fired but we assured her she'd be okay. Dh is in the kitchen eating and I'm putting ds back to sleep. I know he's sitting there heart broken.. worrying about his mom.. In the car he said he couldn't get the image of her crying out off his mind...
Night everyone, will update later.