I am in a state of want right now and i feel edgy and restless..... I am no longer getting a divorce.... and some of the compramises are about finally getting to the things he tended to put off and off ...... so now i have to wait out the damn loan modification to move forward with the re-financing --- and if that goes well i should be looking at roughly 80 Grand and that is going directly into our house.... I am getting the house i want if i have to add on and make it happen myself!!!!!!!!!!!! I have become a Pintrest-a-holic planning and planning
My second want.......... baby...... yes insane at 42 but here is the deal --- i do love my husband even if that maddly in love crap is long gone and we are amazing parents - always on the same page and he is a great dad and my best friend.... and since my youngest is 12 and i have 2 going off to college or moving out -- my nest is gunna be well very empty.... and well i am not sure just him and I is enough.... so why not bring more love into the home by having another or 2 babies..... i can't imagine anything better than to have 2 more babies.... I have wanted more for over a decade but have put off for one reason or another --- well why --- why should I??? I am not doing anything other than not preventing and will let the Lord decide that.... but in the meantime --- Pintrest yes i have a board for that too!!!!
so I want a baby
I want to get my re-finance done
i want to add onto my house
i want to re-model most of the inside.....
am i asking for too much???? LOL
oh and i am thinking if i am blessed with more I will see about going into business for myself and make it so i can be at home with my new love!!!! I don't want another nanny raising my baby --- i want to do it all and just enjoy every second and milestone..... i want to soak it up this time!!!!
what is your list.......
"these ramblings courtesy of a mom over 40"