(Update) My bestfriend killed herself 6 months ago and last night me and her husband were together ( I feel horrible)
She killed herself 6 months ago by taking 60 loritabs, 40 hydrocodone, and washing it down with Southern comfort. She left behind a husband that loved her a lot and 2 kids one being only 8 weeks old. She had postpartum depression and was getting help for it but some how she lost it one day. I was there with him at the hospital for 3 days while she was on life support and he had to make the decision to take her off. I have 2 kids as well and my ex husband is never there so i think it was kind of easy for us to lean on each other. We never let it get very far. He brought hi skids over in the morning and I took them to school and watched the baby while he worked. I would make dinner for all of us than he would take his kids home and we would all do it the next day. Yesterday however he had a bad day. When he came to pick up the kids he was really frustrated because of work so I told him the kids could spend the night and asked him if he wanted a beer. he had 2 beers and he started relaxing a bit. Then he told me he did not know what he would do without me. He started talking about how hard it has been for him and the kids and how if it wasnt for me he could not have done it and made it through her death. Well one thing lead to another and we ended up sleeping together last night. This morning when he left he kissed me on the cheek and told me that we have to talk about were we go from here. I do think I an starting to fall in love with him but I am not sure if he feels the same way. I also cannot help but feel I am doing something wrong because he was my best friends husband. Did I do something wrong? Would it be wrong to move forward with him?
Update: We talked about it and he told me that he had strong feelings for me and that he wanted to have a relationship but we have decided to take it slowely because we are both grieving still. He said he did not regret what happened last night and neither do I after I thought about it more. So we have decided to date and see where it goes. Thanks to everyone who shared positive advice and thoughts.