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I'm terrified. Pics added. HUGE UPDATE!

Posted by on Jun. 21, 2013 at 10:40 PM
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My doctor called a little bit ago.  I had a CT scan done last week and my results came in today.  They aren't good.  I have a 4 centimeter mass in my throat and they believe it's lymphoma.  In the next few weeks I have more CT scans, a biopsy, blood work.... And I can't think right now.  I'm so scared and I don't know what to do. 

Any words or advice?  I know it's not really a confession or anything, but this is the main board that I'm on.

Okay, pic one is me pointing to where it is.  Pic 2 is without my finger. 

 


****Thank you all SOO much for the positive thoughts, prayers, good ju-ju, whatever you do.  Thank you.  I will update this post as I get information and results.****

So yesterday was my appointment with the specialist.  A funky tasting and a scope shoved down my throat later, I got told that he 'doesn't believe it's cancerous' due to it not being hard AND fixed in place.  Could have fooled me, but I'm not a specialist in this crap. 
It IS a tumor of some sort.  So he did a biopsy.  He numbed me, then took 3 samples, and that was a whopping 6 stabs in the neck, folks!  I hate needles.  I REALLY hate needles.  Anywho, no problems until I go to leave.  All of the sudden, my vision went black, my hearing went all wonky, and I threw up.  My BP was out of whack and then I was good again.  No more problems once that little episode passed. 
Other than that, I find out my results on the 19th and if nothing shows up I have to have it removed since it's causing problems when I'm sick.  So pretty much, I'm looking at surgery no matter what, but I may or may not have to have chemo depending on the results. 

And today my neck is sore.  I guess 6 needles pokes will do that though, huh?

Well, my chest, abdomen, and pelvic scan came back normal!  But I was also informed that no matter what, I'm going to have to have surgery to remove the tumors in my neck.  Plural.  Apparently there's like 2 strands of messed up lymph nodes that need to come out, regardless of the biopsy outcome.  :/

Other than that, my neck is still a bit sore to the touch.  I find out the results on the 19th.  Yay. 

So I had my results come in from the biopsy and they were undiagnosable so today I went back for another one.  By the time I was out of the appointment my massive lump was so small that I can't even feel it!!!!  They firmly believe that it is a system of cysts and no cancer!  I will update with the actual results when they come in, but I feel SOOOO much better now!  Well, they had to stick me 10-15 times with needles in order to get the gunk out, but it'll be worth it.  I can finally breathe easy.  Literally. 

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TheDoctorsWife
by on Jun. 21, 2013 at 10:40 PM
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Great big hugs!!!
catrig
by Platinum Member on Jun. 21, 2013 at 10:41 PM
Just well wishes.
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lucky2Beeme
by Ruby Member on Jun. 21, 2013 at 10:42 PM

Hugs and prayers momma. I'm sorry I dont have more to offer.

Anonymous
by Anonymous 1 on Jun. 21, 2013 at 10:45 PM
I'm so sorry. the worst aspect of my job is entering patient data, I hate seeing 23 year old men with testicular cancer and 12 year olds with lymphoma. I don't have enough experience yet and it gets to me. I will say that from my understanding, if it's to the CT scan stage, they are trying to determine severity. then you'll have scans to re-stage to check the progress of your treatment.

I wish you the best, and hope you end up in one of my centers. they treat their patients with extreme care.
Thewife06
by Silver Member on Jun. 21, 2013 at 11:31 PM

I had to tell the doctor I would call her back on monday since I couldn't answer ANY of her questions that she had. 
I'm 24.  Cancer doesn't run in my family.  I"m still hoping that it's wrong. 


Quoting Anonymous:

I'm so sorry. the worst aspect of my job is entering patient data, I hate seeing 23 year old men with testicular cancer and 12 year olds with lymphoma. I don't have enough experience yet and it gets to me. I will say that from my understanding, if it's to the CT scan stage, they are trying to determine severity. then you'll have scans to re-stage to check the progress of your treatment.

I wish you the best, and hope you end up in one of my centers. they treat their patients with extreme care.



thatgirlNH
by on Jun. 21, 2013 at 11:36 PM

I am so sorry, I hope everything gets better somehow.

KeriAZ
by on Jun. 21, 2013 at 11:42 PM
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Hey! I was 32 when I was first diagnosed with non Hodgkin's lymphoma. I had to be hospitalized cause my blood work was real bad. Was in for two wks. When they figured out what I had I went thru chemo. Chemo isn't as bad as it was yrs ago. I'm here if u want to talk.

Quoting Thewife06:

I had to tell the doctor I would call her back on monday since I couldn't answer ANY of her questions that she had. 
I'm 24.  Cancer doesn't run in my family.  I"m still hoping that it's wrong. 



Quoting Anonymous:

I'm so sorry. the worst aspect of my job is entering patient data, I hate seeing 23 year old men with testicular cancer and 12 year olds with lymphoma. I don't have enough experience yet and it gets to me. I will say that from my understanding, if it's to the CT scan stage, they are trying to determine severity. then you'll have scans to re-stage to check the progress of your treatment.



I wish you the best, and hope you end up in one of my centers. they treat their patients with extreme care.




Thewife06
by Silver Member on Jun. 21, 2013 at 11:42 PM

you and me both. 


Quoting thatgirlNH:

I am so sorry, I hope everything gets better somehow.



Nichole0403
by Silver Member on Jun. 21, 2013 at 11:47 PM
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I'm sorry. Both my dad and aunt had NH lymphoma, my aunts was at stage 4 when found. But she is a fighter and now hit her 5 year clear! Just take everything as it comes and be strong. Positive thinking is great and I believe aids in recovery. You can handle more than you believe you can! If you need anyone to talk to PM me, I come from a long line of cancer fighters including my 5 yo ds.
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by Anonymous 2 on Jun. 21, 2013 at 11:49 PM
What prompted them to do a ct scan ? I cant imagine how scary this is for you !
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