Well tonight I let a man touch me.. He sensed how uneasy I was and thought he was being to rough but infact he was being to gentle.. It made me very nervous.. But I let touch my body... I felt awful because I was so anxious that I layed still focusing on each touch trying to decipher his next move that I didn't touch him until he would move my hands to touch him then I would remember.. I'm so tired of not being able to be touched or orgasm or be normal.. My past haunts me no matter how I try to let it go., I can hardly stand it when my two year old dd touched me. It had become easier though and I've stopped flinching when she touches me..