I WOULD LOVE TO THANK EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU FOR YOUR WONDERFUL ADVICE! I have read them all and this is really giving me the push and eye opening I need. Who says strangers on the Internet can't help? It can give you a variety of outside perspective in the simplest form. It can make you see that your problems aren't always the mountains they seem to be,but that many people have the same concerns or have found ways to avoid your problems and can give you great advice on how. Again, thank you :)
I have 2 toddlers and I will admit my life revolves around them. I'm a SAHM, something I said Id never be. Gone through PPD pretty badly after my second was born.
My parents, in laws, and husband all say I give up too much of myself to focus on the kids. I can say, now that's its been brought up, that I haven't done anything for myself in years. I've never been gone from them for longer than a few hours here and there throughout the years and 12 hours was the longest once. I haven't gone shopping. I eat the scraps of whatever the kids don't eat. I'm not too concerned with what I look like or eat or do as long as my daughters are happy and living full lives.
I don't know where or how I developed this "obsession" ,as my family calls it, with my kids but apparently it's worrisome?
It worries me a little because I do have anxiety pretty much non stop. I picture bad things happening to them and I just freak. These things just pop into my head..I would stop breathing if anything happened to them, literally.
Is this all as wrong as I'm being told?? Is there something wrong with me?
EDIT: Thank you all for your mostly kind replies and advice! Some are lengthy but I'm going through each and every one.