I'm having such a rough night. Dealing with chronic pain issues that just keep getting worse. Nobody seems to know what is really wrong. All I know is I'm in so much pain that I have thoughts of ending it all. The only reason I don't if because of my family and how much they would miss me. But then I have to think, I'm in so much pain that my quality of life is so shitty, I'm not as good of a mom as I could be....wouldn't they be better off? I hate this, I hate feeling like this and thinking like this, but I don't know how much longer I can do it.