i cant get over my ex... he's a jackass, a deadbeat.. i mean, you think of the worst deadbeat dad in the world- and you got him.
didnt care about the pregnancy- check
didnt go to the birth- check
didnt/doesnt pay CS- check.
said that he wished me and the kid dead- check. (said when he was high... says he regrets ever saying that)
regrets having me as a 'baby momma'- check (only when he's mad though... when he's happy, he says he's lucky that i'm raising one of his kids)
oh yea- multiple kids with multiple women- check
drugs, drinking and driving, over dosing, attempted suicide... been to court MULTIPLE TIMES- check, check, check.
went to jail, went to rehab, went to prison- check.
you name it, he probably did it.
so WHY does my heart beat a little faster when i think about him? or get a call from him? when i'm around him, i just melt. dont get me wrong- i'm not a push over. when i'm pissed, he knows it and hears about it. when he did something wrong- i'll be the first to tell him and i dont sugarcoat shit.
my heart says; be with him, you love him... but it's also saying, you're horrible for even flirting with the idea. you dont deserve your kid if you get back with him!