i need to just step away, disconnect and i guess just cut her out because i cant handle this anymore, this is fucking ridiculous.
raquel is driving her batshit crazy, moms farm has a huge cloud of anger & depression hanging over it and YES MOM your house is chalk full of negative energy, and sorry! if i cant handle being there for more than an hour at a time!
confession? i fucking hate my sister for what she has done to our family.
i dont even have a mom anymore.
she would rather build shit in her yard and aquire more animals to take care of than clean her goddamn house, she would rather watch youtube clips and worry about the world ending than TALK ABOUT ANYTHING having to do with reality.
raquel is a toxic fucking whore who screams and yells at mom from sun up to sundown, that is, when she hasnt run off to go fuck some random dude or whatever the hell it is she is doing.
my mom needs help. she is not getting it and i dont thinksheis dedicating the time to finding it.
i call her up and tell her "call this number, tell then what has happened and IS happening, and tell them you cant handle it and you need respite care for raquel, you can get her in tonight"
and what does she do? freaks out on me and tells me i am judging her and guilt trips me for not coming over more often and for not staying longer when i do.
i am sorry guys im just really upset and frustrated
i want my mom back. she hasnt been the same since raquel shot herself
she is so angry, and bitter, and unreasonable......**sigh**.....i give up