But I'm too week to.
My mind hurts so much.
I have thought of many different ways.
Take all my sezure meds.
The whole Costco bottle of pain pills.,
drink the booze in the house.,
Slice my wrists with the knifes my inlaws bought us.
Nothing makes me happy. I got $5,000 from a relative that passed and yet I can't buy anything for me. Becouse for some reason I feel I don't deserve it.
My head hurts. I'm so stressed. I was at the doctor today and scored really high on the depression and the anxiety questioners he gave me. Yet there is nothing he can do with my psych meds. I can't get a psych to see me. I have been looking for over 4 years now. 4 years of my doctor sending referrals off every few months.
Im just done.
i got a call from my doctor. They finally after 4 years and sending out over 20 referrals per year to shrinks has finally found one for me.
I have an appt in 2 weeks.
Im trying to hold in for the next two weeks...