When I was in my late teens and early twenties, I really got caught up in the party scene and had a life that I really didn't want. Yeah, I had some good times... But I was really only there because I was lost. When I met my husband (who wasn't a member of the party scene) everything just kind of fell into place and I got my shit together really quick. Thank God. Once I had my daughter I stopped hanging out with a lot of my old friends. I just didn't want their influence on myself as a mother or my children. I only had to "dump" one person... The rest I just drifted away from.
So fast forward to now... I'm a happily married mother of 2, with a nice home that I own, and I'm graduating from college next semester. I FINALLY feel good about where I am in life. My main goal in life has always been to have a family and be a good mom. I used to feel a lot of guilt about my past, but I'm now at a point that I have accepted it and don't really beat myself up over it anymore (thanks to a good round of therapy ;)) . But now and again someone from my past will pop up and make comments about it. It seems to be the same people. They will call me party girl (my old nick name) and don't seem accept it when I say... That's not my name anymore, don't call me that, I'm a mom now,ect. It's just made me realize that some people will only recognize me for what I was going through during that small glimpse of my life... Because that's only what they WANT to recognize me as no matter how much work I've done to better my life. It's sad really. Sometimes I think that people will only see what they want to see because they need someone to look down on. If that person is me... So be it. I have better things to worry about, and I'm not stuck in the past. People change sometimes get over it and move on! Rant over!
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