Well I just found out I am pregnant. For most people this means pure happiness. For me it feels like my life is over. I just turned 45. I thought I was done having kids 10 years ago when I got my tubal after a devastating emergency c-section which ended up being my angel baby
I just do not know how to feel or what to do. I thought I was going through menopause. I haven't even told DH yet. I don't even know how.
UPDATE! I told dh last night. We talked for hours and thought about all the options. We both agreed that we do not want another baby and we are going to setup an appointment for me to get an abortion. I really feel it is best. I have many different health problems, I am not mentally stable enough to have a baby also. It took 5 years of counseling after what happened with my angel baby and I am stil not okay all the way. Every single second I am pregnant it is all I can think of. The stress alone of thinking about being pregnant, having to go through labor, and all the added risks have given me panic attacks and chest pains.
It is scheduled for later today.
Oldish update: I had it done. I have been feeling a lot better