I just found out why my brother raped me. EDIT IN BLUE
He raped me since I was 5 to 18. Don't ask why I never told, it's a long dramatic story.
Anyway, I found out today from my little sister that right around the time he started molesting me, he had been fondled by a male friend of my parents.
Don't get me wrong it doesn't make it right, but I'm not as mad anymore.
Does that make sense?
I should have mentioned, but he was 9 when he first started.