UPDATE: How old are you and how many true friends do you actually have? UPDATE W/MY STORY
UPDATE: I was bullied severely as a child, from elementary THROUGH high school.
I have very low self esteem. I don't know how to be "fake" and I don't know how to deal with fake people. I tend to trust people too soon and with personal things that they end up using against me. I am very bitter about my bullying and I get very paranoid when dramatic situations involving gossip come up. I am random and I tend to talk a lot, mostly when I'm nervous or I'm overcompensating. I talk so much I forget to listen a lot of the time. I have "foot in mouth" syndrome and always manage to say the wrong thing at the wrong time, I am a pessimist.