These past months, my husband and I have been arguing a lot. Instead of things getting better, they are getting worse! I don't know what to do anymore because whenever we are on the phone, all we do is fight. We pretty much have a long distance relationship and only see each other every so many months if work allows. We are to the point where we no longer talk or even text. Whenever we speak on the phone is after I have reached my limit. I have to ask him to call me at least to see how I am doing. If I try reaching out to him, I get his voicemail or he replies very short texts back as if he didn't want to talk to me. I am so tired of this and just want to call it quits. I keep trying so hard for us to work but it's exhausting! I feel like our relationship is one sided. I feel neglected and I don't feel like a married woman. All I do is cry at night and pretend to everyone else that knows us that everything is perfect. Everyone says to me how lucky I am to have a great guy as a husband and I cannot tell anyone, not even close friends, the ways he has hurt me in the past and how he neglects me now; I can't tell anyone because I don't want any of them to hate him. I'm just so frustrated! I probably will not be able to see him till next year because I have to travel for work and it's like he doesn't even care that communication is one of the most important things especially when we have a sort-of long distance going on.
I don't know anymore. I have told him how I feel and he tells me that I need to calm down and stop all the craziness. And the only way I can really tell him how I feel is through text because he says that he doesn't want to talk to me on the phone to hear me bitch. I just feel so frustrated and I really want to end things. Am I being too harsh for thinking divorce as an option?! :(