He's been very irritated and in a bad mood since yesterday. He suffers from anxiety and probably an underlying issue with depression that he is in denial that he has. He's not treated for any of it, although I've offered many natural substances to help him (St John's Wart, etc). Anyway, he was soooo ill last night. We went to dinner as a family and he just sat there reading a book on his phone. Ignored everyone. Snapped at me and the kids. He NEVER snaps at the kids but yesterday he did. I haven't seen him in that bad of a mood in a very long time but I believe everyone is entitled to a bad day so I left him alone. Well he woke up ill again this morning...bitching about everything. He said he needed his debit card so I gave it to him before I took the kids to school. I came home and was looking for my wallet because even though my debit card strip is broken and I'm waiting for a new card to arrive I can still go to the bank and get cash with my ID. Well I can't find it. He throws a fit saying "You can't keep up with anything". Uhm, my purse, keys, and wallet go in the same place every day. We have a new puppy and she's been hoarding stuff in my and the kids' room...I've found all kinds of crap in my bed before. No luck finding it and I told him I really needed his card because I have to go to the store for a NEED. He just wanted his debit card for cigarettes. He said "well go stand on the corner then" and left. Whatever. So I went back to searching the house and ten minutes later he came back and threw his card in my face and said "There you whiney little bitch" and left for work.
Normally I don't care about his attitude, as I've said he's never really been THIS iill before, but being pregnant and hormonal I just broke down into tears and felt hurt.
While I know he needs treatment we can't get it until January, when our insurance kicks back in, so he has to wait. I"m hoping he can start taking an herbal suppliment and be willing to try some tips that have helped me over the years I went untreated for the same problems but we'll see. Not looking for advice or a "You need to leave him" I just needed to vent =/