I know im depressed. thats not the issue here. I am seeking help so dont worry.
my question is about crying.
my parents were abusive all my life. mom beating me, treating me like shit, ignoring me, neglecting me, etc. my father either ignoring it, or lying for my mother, telling me what lies to tell the school etc.
then i married my DH, who i thought was my savior, when i was 20, still living with my parents and their abuse.
it was a few months before i got pregnant after getting married.
but it seemed, over a year, my DH changed. he was an abuser too. i wont go into detail. thats not really the point here.
we are broke, struggling so hard. I am leaving my husband as soon as i have an out. (job, shelter, etc)
I feel like crying ALL THE TIME. i hurt so much, and i want to cry SO BAD
but i never do.
I try to make myself cry, and i cant.
i feel it come up a little, then it goes away.
i want to cry so bad :( :(
how do i cry?!
ive never really cried before. but i want to so much right now.
whats wrong with me that i cant cry!?