I hate it when I feel this way. When dh and I have disconnected from each other and I realize just how lonely I am. How I have no friends and few relatives. I'd rather be alone then with Dh right now though. It's the worst feeling in the world to be in the same room or house with someone yet feel so distant from them. I've been through this phase before, I'm sure it will pass, but don't know how long it will last. It really hits home when he spend so much time with his friends and totally neglects his family. When he talks about his concerns about his coworkers, friends, family yet doesn't ask about me and my health issues. Worse yet when he can't answer what the prescription I must take daily is for. Or when he is home yet avoids us all by watching his tv shows that nobody else likes or puttering around the yard/garage.
I hate this feeling. So depressing. F@ck, there must be more to life than this. When I was in my 20's I was so full of life, so fearless, now it feels I do nothing but waste time.