That is what I am worried about. I was sexually abused by 2 men in my family from as far back as I can remember up until I was 13 and hit puberty. That was also when I could fight back.
Now I am married to a great man and have a beautiful little girl but I worry so much. No one in my family knows what happened to me. Even though it took place when other people were around. It was usually when I needed to go inside to go to the bathroom or get something and everyone else was outside. If one of them was there then he would follow me inside and make me do things like give him oral sex. All the time I could hear people outside chatting, laughing and listening to music, they didn't know anything was going on.
I refuse to tell them because one of the men is dead and the other no one hears from anymore. But I worry so much, especially when DH takes DD up to change her diaper or whatever else she needs. I worry that all men have this drive. I know it isn't true but it is still in the back of my mind all the time.
How can I make it stop?