Excuse me on the title change. I think ANON who keeps acting like everyone should be able to handle situations like she did deserves a medal. Too bad I do not have one. How about a cookie??? Don't forget to take notes peeps!!!!
I wrote a post about happiness last night. I poofed it before going to bed because I wanted to be sure I was here to answer replies.
I was simply venting. Just so you all know and most already know this i'll NEVER give up hope. Me and Naeem have many great memories. I'm happy in the moment. But I do not have inner happiness and it's not my choice. My choice is to be happy but there is no way to have positive thoughts when your child is continually hurting (emotionally & physically) you. If you are that perfect that you can be positive during all the rages i've been through in the past three years you deserve a medal. I'm getting my son help. That's always been top priority and those that know me (old timers from nc) know i've never given up or lost hope & know i'll do whatever I got to do to see my little boy be happy again. Seeing my son unhappy makes me unhappy. I'm sorry but not being able to help your hurting child sucks. It messes with your mind after awhile and it has literally effed me up mentally and emotionally. I'm in therapy and take meds as well. Yes, those meds need to be changed. I'm severely depressed but since i'm doing this wrong i'd definitely love to switch lives with some of you who act like it's so easy to be positive in my walk of life.
If you are clueless you can read these posts for Naeem's struggles & story: