CM has helped me a lot in a few different ways.
People like me here, really like me. It is my connection to the outside world after being in a very unhappy marriage for the last 5 years. Here are a few examples:
1.)My DH hates my personality, you ladies love it because I am outgoing and have a twisted sense of humor. I can be myself here.
2.)DH berates the way I look and I have been told by several of you that I am actually very pretty.
3.)He refuses to let me follow my dreams and go back to school. Its either be a housewife or get a full time job, no in between. You ladies have encouraged me to follow my dreams.
4.)You have given me self-esteem when all he did was tear it down.
5.)He is always telling me how bad of a mother I am, but I spend 90% of my time with the kids.
6.)Yells at me and calls me a worthless alcoholic when I only drink about once a month, yet he drinks almost every night.
There are so many more things and he just doesn't understand why I spend so much time on here....it's because although I don't know any of you in real life, you are my girls.
Most of all, you all have given me the courage to finally leave him. For about 2 weeks now I have been stashing money back that he doesn't know about. I have a job interview with an old boss tomorrow and I pretty much already have the job, we are just going through the formalities and he will work around school hours.
I am on a list for income based apartments and they are going to try to get me in fast because I fall under the "mental abuse" #2 emergency category and all I have to do is give them an average of how much I will be making at my new job. They said they have the perfect apartment for me that will be ready in 2 months.
I have already been approved for foodstamps (he has no idea) and my FAFSA was approved yesterday for school. My kids are also being processed for medicaid.
Yes, I am going to use the government for now to my fullest advantage because I refused to do it when I left my first husband for physical abuse and my children suffered because of my stubborness and they will not go through that again.
BUT, I just want to thank all of you ladies for everything you have done and you don't even realize it. It feels so good to know I will finally be free. It may still be hard, but if I did it before without assistance, I know I can do it with assistance.